As living beings in this ever-expanding universe, we accept this to be true. People change. Places change. Times change. Everything changes. Yet, we always expect those changes to be gradual, or preferably subtle enough that our level comfort isn’t modified that much. Unfortunately, that’s just not how the world works.
A year ago I decided to embark on a new journey by finally starting the blog I’d always wanted, Nerdylicious. It was meant to be a way for me to share my nerdy interests with the world. My plan was to cover topics from a wide enough range to appeal to a broad audience. It was an ambitious undertaking that I soon learned was going to take a large amount of my time. Yet, I was committed. For a little while, it all seemed doable. I was having fun. Then, that began to change. The increased responsibilities with my family made it hard to be excited about Nerdylicious. But, I wasn’t going to give up. I would just write when I had the time and energy. In that way, it was something for me to look forward to. I had a pretty good plan. Life, however, doesn’t care about your plans.
My grandmother went into the hospital a few days after Thanksgiving in 2017. She stayed there for a week with complications from congestive heart failure. Life was getting back to a somewhat normal routine after Grandma’s health episode when both my parents went to the hospital the week before Christmas. First my dad with a stroke, and then my mom with liver failure a few days later. It was a crazy time that took all the strength that I had, and then some. Things needed to be done, and I was the one who had to do it. Needless to say, it was the most exhausting holiday season I’ve ever had.
Nerdylicious got put on the backburner. I mean the back-back-backburner. Things had changed. I had to transition to full-time care for my grandmother and my mother. Even though my dad’s recovery was great, I was still worried about him living by himself. I had to make sure I could be available for him in case he needed me. My time was no longer my own. The thing that kept me going was understanding that I was doing the right thing. I moved back home 5 years ago to help my family. So, it wouldn’t be helpful to complain about being needed. While I found the motivation to care for other people, I lost motivation to write anything or interact with readers. It was just another thing to do on my long list of daily things to do. I felt terrible about this feeling because I wanted to be excited about my blog. Then, I realized that I was feeling how any normal person would under similar circumstance. Taking care of not one, but two adults full-time was draining. Plus, I had my teenage son, my growing adult brother, and my three adorable doggies. Who would care about a blog? I did. I needed to figure out a way to make it work.
Well, I’m happy to say that I figured out it. Nerdylicious is undergoing a rebranding. At its core, this blog is about celebrating the things I love nerding out about. After some self-reflection, I had to admit that I get most excited TV and films. So, I’ll be blogging about those two areas on a regular basis with the occasional article about food, fashion, or some other relevant topic. I’m also really excited about introducing a new feature inspired by conversations with my son. I’ll be debuting it soon. I think people are going to really enjoy it.
Thank you to everyone who has supported my blog and Facebook page. And if you are going through something challenging in your life, something that has caused changes, know that you aren’t alone. Stay positive and look to the things that bring you joy or respite to help you through each day.
Take care and Happy Mother’s Day!